January 27, 2010
My brain is lost. My emotions have taken over completely. It is like watching a tidal wave move in and knowing you are helpless before the awesome power of shifting hormones.
It all started at midnight when my husband finally came to bed. I had waited with the light on, which I literally never do. Nevertheless, the light was on. At midnight the stupid light turned off and I fell asleep for what was to be my only hour of sleep all night. 1am baby crying. I do not fall back to sleep easily. 3am baby crying. 5am baby crying. 6:30am alarm. 7am drive to local high school. 7:30am frantic feeding and dressing of 4 other children. 7:50am freak out moment.
When I say freak out, I mean it. I mean yelling, screaming, stomping freak out. I mean swearing. I mean totally and completely losing my mind. I put a ‘lost mind’ advertisement up on Craig’s list. I haven’t gotten any responses yet.
I ate my way through the rest of the day, with breaks to drive people places. I should not be allowed to drive at all in this state. I am pretty sure having a usable brain is desirable when operating heavy machinery going 70. And every single time I think about hormones I get angry enough to ram into the first vehicle in my path. When I am not feeling irritated enough to spit nails I am ready to just stop everything and hang my hands down to the floor and cry….schlumped shoulders and everything. “What’s the point?” I wail.
Comment from Leslie
Women do not need to suffer from these mood swings. It is hormone imbalance pure, simple and manageable. Seek out natural progesterone or bioidentical hormones – and your life will be much more peaceful and so will the lives of everyone around you.