A Vicious Cycle

Just Keep Swimming

January 27, 2010

My brain is lost.  My emotions have taken over completely.  It is like watching a tidal wave move in and knowing you are helpless before the awesome power of shifting hormones.

It all started at midnight when my husband finally came to bed.  I had waited with the light on, which I literally never do.  Nevertheless, the light was on.  At midnight the stupid light turned off and I fell asleep for what was to be my only hour of sleep all night.  1am baby crying.  I do not fall back to sleep easily.  3am baby crying.  5am baby crying.  6:30am alarm.  7am drive to local high school.  7:30am frantic feeding and dressing of 4 other children.  7:50am freak out moment.

When I say freak out, I mean it.  I mean yelling, screaming, stomping freak out.  I mean swearing.  I mean totally and completely losing my mind.  I put a ‘lost mind’ advertisement  up on Craig’s list.  I haven’t gotten any responses yet.

I ate my way through the rest of the day, with breaks to drive people places.  I should not be allowed to drive at all in this state.  I am pretty sure having a usable brain is desirable when operating heavy machinery going 70.  And every single time I think about hormones I get angry enough to ram into the first vehicle in my path.  When I am not feeling irritated enough to spit nails I am ready to just stop everything and hang my hands down to the floor and cry….schlumped shoulders and everything.  “What’s the point?”  I wail.


Comment from Leslie

Women do not need to suffer from these mood swings.  It is hormone imbalance pure, simple and manageable.  Seek out natural progesterone or bioidentical hormones – and your life will be much more peaceful and so will the lives of everyone around you.


Author: Leslie Carol Botha

Author, publisher, radio talk show host and internationally recognized expert on women's hormone cycles. Social/political activist on Gardasil the HPV vaccine for adolescent girls. Co-author of "Understanding Your Mood, Mind and Hormone Cycle." Honorary advisory board member for the Foundation for the Study of Cycles and member of the Society for Menstrual Cycle Research.