By Denise Welch 29/04/2010
Denise Welch has never felt strong enough to tell all about her 20-year fight against depression – until now.
In the final extract from her sensational autobiography Pulling Myself Together, the Loose Women and Coronation Street star details the severity of the dark illness that left her suicidal.
Denise, 51, married to actor Tim Healy with two sons, Matthew, 21, and Louis, eight, also reveals how a breakthrough hormone treatment finally cured her.
“I know exactly when my 20-year battle with depression started. It was as Tim and I drove home from hospital with our new son Matthew.
I said to Tim: “I feel really weird, as if I’m outside looking in.”
“You’re probably feeling tired, pet,” he said. But it wasn’t tiredness, it was something else altogether. And it was about to turn my world upside down.
I’d experienced an intense bout of the baby blues, as almost every new mother does.
It was normal to be emotional; I expected it and I was prepared for it. But I wasn’t prepared for this. After my second night at home my boobs had gone from Jayne Mansfield’s to Twiggy’s; they were empty and floppy. The lactation process had stopped and I had no milk to offer Matthew.
Later that day the midwife reacted with shock when she saw my boobs.
“That’s very unusual!” she said. “I’ve only seen it happen when there’s been bereavement, when the mother loses her husband or the baby dies.”
I was horrified. It was the last thing I wanted to hear. I felt like an alien.
HORMONE IMBALANCE – HORMONE IMBALANCE – Manageable and Treatable – when left undiagnosed or treated with psychotropics, or SSRI’s the situation only get worse….and the imbalance not addressed at all.